un-determination

not feeling very confidant about being
able to do the job today....and its only
monday.
had a bag of chips and some crackers&sheese
and grapes for lunch. that's all i've eaten
today. i'll be here for a few more hours at
least. not time to go to the cafetaria. have
to get this treatment plan done tonight.

who am i fooling? i can't do this fuckin job.
i wasted saturday cause i came in today and it
wasn't good enough so now i've spent the entire
day on it to no avail.

death is too good for me and my foolishness....