Well, yes, that is an ambigous title. But I've been thinking of that sort of the thing a lot, as usual.
I think I'm kind of adjusting to life here in Chicago. I do like the city a lot, at least. But, it's the
rest of life that has me looking at the reality we live in. The disconnect between people and the
difficulty that exists in meeting and forming friendships with others. The all encompasing obsession with "work" and how, because of it we, live in such an isolated existence. I don't know, maybe it's just me, but that's the perception I have. I might be wrong and it might be easier for evereone else. There has to be a better way for us to live. There is. I just don't know it. My feeling is that the way we are living is killing a large part of what actually makes us human. Like I said, maybe I'm wrong, maybe it's just me and I'm a social mutant that has a problem forming realtionships with people. Everyone else seems to have great social relationships at times. But maybe they don't and those are all very superfical relationships that contain no substance. Hey, what do I know, right? Maybe more than I think.
Ya know, I feel that lack of connection deeply. I have no sense of how others perceive me, and it bothers me. Does it bother others as much? It's bothered me since high school or maybe earlier. It's not that I want to be the "popular" guy, but it's the need to want to be wanted, to be appreciated, to be considered a part of something, to be ... human. Otherwise we're alone and adrift and it feels like there is no connection to something beyond your own internal world.
At the end of the day, which looks to be right now according to the clock, I wish people could be more honest and straighforward in their interactions with others. Does that girl actually like me? Do my co-workers consider me an asshole? Is this haircut that bad? Do I have spinach stuck between my teeth? Christ, would a little honesty kill everyone?
Here's wishing love, truth, and honesty to everyone 'cause I'm sick of the hate and the dishonesty...
Have a great week, my friends.
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3 comments:
You do have spinach stuck between your teeth.
fuck. thanks, tim!
your thoughts, many have. everyone wants to be wanted even if they don't admit it.
yes, western society is all about work. I am a prime example.
you have a lot to offer. don't judge yourself on what others think. esp people who aren't worth it.
cheer up. i hate seeing you down.
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